I often have these moments where I find myself totally and completely in love. Yes, in love. Enamoured, hopeful, giddy, floating on an indescribable high, infatuated, existing in this perfect little bubble where it seems like nothing bad can ever happen. There’s no guy, no career, no person, place, or thing that is my focus. … Continue reading Find your M.A.V.E.R.I.C.K. Seriously, find it. It’s MAGIC.
New year, new focus. I'm ready to find "The One." And no, I don't necessarily believe that there is one person for everyone, a soul mate, but I do know that I am done being single. I have spent enough time with myself, I have healed, I have learned how to be myself despite who's … Continue reading 2021: The Year of The One
Wow, it's been a minute, hasn't it? I needed a break. A real break. I've been burning the candle at both ends for a long time; simultaneously meeting the expectations of those around me while pursuing personal goals that would lead me to a life by my own design. Day after day of work after … Continue reading 2020 – The Year (We) Didn’t Know (We) Needed
The quarantine has provided ample opportunity to spend time with the self; to look inward, evaluate, and take the time to consider new understanding and/or growth. It's also been a reality-check in that we have the choice to lean into it or run away from it. "It" being the self. There's been plenty of weeks, … Continue reading Uncomfortable
"When you sit at the poker table, you don't get to play both sides; you're not the dealer. The cards you get are the cards you get. Your hand is your hand, and you gotta play it out. Now the question is, are you gonna play it out? Or fold? Just last night I had … Continue reading Play The Cards You Were Dealt
Silence. I've been mostly silent for months now. Not because I don't have anything to say - I don't think we ever have to worry about that! - but because of a creativity block. All the content flowing through my brain is for me. Things I'm working through, processing through, dealing with, and learning from. … Continue reading What Exists in the Silence.
How did I get here? Again? I thought I was better. I remember back to the day when I woke up and realized my life wasn’t mine. That I had been allowing the people in my life to shape it because of my deep-seated fear of being alone; of disappointing anyone or pushing them away. … Continue reading Nothing Stays the Same
Success is a funny thing, isn’t it? First of all, who defines it? I hope the answer is you. You define it for yourself. Sure, we let all sorts of people and experiences influence how we define it, but at the end of the day, it’s you who has to live with your success. Do … Continue reading I Am Scared
I did not grow up in a religious house-hold. Allegedly, my family is Catholic. I remember going to some sort of kids class at the church on a weeknight growing up, I had a first communion, and there’s video proof I’ve been baptized, but to say my family is religious is just a wild exaggeration. … Continue reading Chapter 6: Religious Manipulation
I am a big dreamer, in case you haven’t noticed! I always have been. I can remember laying awake at night imagining the things I’d achieve, the stages I’d perform on, the traveling I’d do, and the people I’d meet. Do you remember the first time you felt that gut-wrenching I-gotta-have-that sensation? Where you wanted … Continue reading Chapter 5: Dreams Don’t Come True